Monday, January 7, 2008

Thank you for sending me your e-mail addresses this week. I am compiling a list of viewers over the next few weeks. I appreciate all your sweet e-mails, its really amazing and humbling to know how many people are praying for our family. Words can never express our gratitude. We will have our blog open probably until Sophie's birth, then it will be private. I hope you can understand. We would like to share our adoption journey with friends and family. Actually, I don't mind if I don't even know you, just send me a short e-mail letting me know who you are. I am currently following many adoption blogs of people I don't know personally, but we share a heart of adoption! Please continue to send your addresses to
I have added some pictures of when my dad came to visit after Christmas. YEP, the grandparents outdid Santa and Noah has not gotten off the John Deere tractor in days! (Don't you love the CAT hat??, Thanks Mr. Don!) He has scooped up every bit of sand/dirt/rocks in our backyard! Hannah Grace got lots of new clothes and shoes from her Paw-Paw. Dad made it just in time to watch the football game! It was great having my dad and sisters here for a visit. I wish he lived closer.

This past week has been hard. Plain and simple. I am just being real and honest. Knowing that our time with Sophie is drawing shorter, makes this whole thing seem like a true living nightmare. Can this be real? Is this really happening to us? It's in times like these that the ONLY thing that brings peace is our hope in Christ. I am constantly reminding myself that God is faithful to His children and He will bring us through this. One of my favorite verses is "The Lord keeps all those who love Him. " Psalm 145:20. And although I would like for things with Sophie to be different, deep down, I only want what His will is. How could I not? God is God and I am not. It may be months from now, years from now, or maybe we will never know... but I feel certain we will look back and be able to see God's hand at work through this trial. Sophie Ann and all that we have learned during this time will bring a gentle smile to our face, and we will praise God for His faithfulness!

I have been reading a great book all about God's sovereignty and I highly recommend this book! Its by Kay Arthur, "As Silver Refined". It's one of those books that you just can't put down. It has been great encouragement to me. I find so much peace when studying and reading about the sovereignty of our great God! I can find joy amidst a trial knowing that nothing has "surprised" God, He has known and ordained this before the beginning of time. I find rest in that. However, I hope you see that I am real, I don't like this, I cry, I think about Sophie and want to throw a tantrum, as a matter of fact... this is pretty much the worst thing that has ever happened to me....BUT. I know I am a child of God, I trust in my God, He has always been faithful to me...And He will carry me through... I will be changed and He will be glorified!!


Lisa said...

Wow, look at that John Deere. He looks like he is having a grand time on the tractor.
I think and pray for you daily!

The Ferrill's said...

Aimee, I love your honesty. I cannot imagine how hard this can be at times, but you are right in that "He will carry me through..." I am praying for you and your whole family and the one waiting in China!
That books sounds awesome, I will see if my church library has it.
Thank you for sharing your life and heart!

Green, Party of Four said...

You and I met at the Lifeline reunion last summer. We have one son and adopted Lily Grace in 04. At the present time, we are paperchasing for Austin and Lily a sister.
Your family is in our prayers daily. I would love to follow your journey thru your precious Sophie and your little one that is also waiting on you in China.
Green Party of Four (soon to be Five)

Bob & Mai Xia said...

Aimee & Family,

We are praying for you. I know exactly what you're going through. I think about not having my little Rachel and my heart just feels like it's being ripped out of my chest.

I have learned so much from your journey. Thank you for your prayers. I'm learning to treasure each day with Rachel; to savor each and every little movement I feel from her.

Your sister in Christ,
Mai Xia Hoffman